HELLO. Hi. Howareya. I’M BACK! Finally. Thank goodness. Praise the Universe!
If you follow me on Twitter you’ll know the reason I haven’t been blogging like I planned to this month is because my poor MacBook suffered water damage and had to be replaced. I know when life throws stuff like this at you it can get some people very down but the way I see it, I would rather damage my Mac than damage my health. I would rather keep a positive mental attitude and know that material objects can be replaced and THANK GOODNESS for insurance.
Moving swiftly on, the brief break actually gave me the push I needed to get back into reading. I had been going through quite a reading slump since finishing A Court of Wings and Ruin. For some reason I was feeling really unmotivated to read, or to even take time to look after myself physically, spiritually, and mentally.
In short, I was in a rut.
A big one.
And I desperately needed to recharge.
I am the type of person who will push themselves to every limit and end up running themselves into the ground. In terms of my anxiety progress, my therapist is actually of the belief that I need to slow down processing, when all I want is to speed up and keep improving. I think it’s so easy in society today to feel pushed to succeed and grow and change and keep climbing higher and higher towards greatness when really, none of us are actually listening to our bodies anymore.
How many of you have tried to push through an illness? Gone to work even if you had the flu? Spent the whole day on your computer even when you had a headache? Continued a diet that you knew wasn’t making you any healthier or making you feel any better?
I realised that I had completely cut self care out of my routine. To be honest, I can’t even claim I had a routine at all anymore. All my days consisted of was wake up, work until you’ve pushed yourself to your limit, collapse exhausted at the end of the day. And that is so effing damaging for your mental health. You can’t treat your body like shit and expect it to work perfectly. Something has got to give.
Which is why when my laptop malfunctioned, it really forced me into spending some self-care time on myself. I ate good food that I had prepared myself, I did an hour long yoga session everyday, I meditated more, took long baths, and read more than I had in a month. In the space of two days, I managed to read Never Never by Brianna Shrum, How to Win Friends and Influence People by Dale Carnegie, The Modern Guide to Witchcraft by Skye Alexander, Sea Spell by Jennifer Donnelly, Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur, and When Panic Attacks by Aine Tubridy. TWO DAYS.
I’m not entirely sure where this stream of consciousness has ended up. Basically I just thought I’d update you to let you know that I haven’t died, or dropped off the face of the earth. I am going to be uploading as much as I possibly can be because I really want to start taking all of this a little bit more seriously and get myself into a good schedule.
I will also be announcing my new email opt-in scheme hopefully early next month, so keep your eyes out for that!
Thank you so much if you’ve made it this far through my ramblings, and from my heart to yours, Namaste.